Some people are luckier than others in that they can work out why the Mental Health Services are treating them badly, they can see why its not them that is in the wrong that it is not them who are unworthy of help but for some this is not the case.
Some people see Suicide attempts as a cry for help and some as a way out of their continued torture, the problem is, I reckon if everyone just hung on in there for a while longer, it may be a month, two months, two years, 12 yrs their contribution to themselves and their community could end up with them living a happier life. At one point the only reason I kept on was because of the ability to help others. I read a scroll by the Dalai Lama about having a precious human life and how if I couldnt be happy for myself how maybe I could use what I have to help other people be happy instead. I still have depression but at least now I feel useful.
However with most things, there is a roulette of chance, one day it might go wrong, like I think it did for Robin Williams I dont think he really wanted to die, I think he made a last ditch attempt to have the decision made for him by a higher power whether he lived or died and unfortunately his roulette wheel spun a black.
This week I have had more problems with Mental Health services not providing care, not admitting to mis diagnosis and not helping me when i needed it and it lead me to write this post so others dont feel alone, its not personal its happening to everyone. Please do not let the treatment of mental health services make you feel worse.
You can always contact SEAP Mental Health Advocacy or MIND charity and ask for help. SEAP can help you liase with the mental health services to get your voice heard. Just google them for info.
Suicide is about prevention, its not about "smoothing over the lines" when its over, because when its over, it really is over, there is no coming back from suicide. There is no second chance, no "lets see if this works", its final its the end.
All I will ask is that if you know someone at risk, talk to them, go around their house even if they dont want you to. Sit with them, help them sleep, talk to them when they want to talk and let them be silent when they need to. Watch a film with them, distract them from suicide, try to get them to eat, try to get them to drink some water, even if only a little.
Time is all it takes, if someone has been drinking alcohol there is absolutely no point in talking to them on the phone, you need to get there in person or get a neighbor to go round.
If they have taken medication get the paramedics around to check their blood or call an ambulance.
Its only a matter of time before they will mix up the wrong potion of pills or alcohol and maybe they didn't really want to die. So PREVENTION please please friends stick together and help prevent rather than react. This will save lives.
I urge you to GOOGLE Mental Health Help, Saneline, MIND, Time to Change, and SEAP speak to people and ask for help. Samaritans are good too.