
You are a Beautiful Mess, just because you have a mental illness does not mean you are broken, it means you are Unique and you can still be a beautiful person. I always thought that having a mental illness made me a broken person or "Just not good enough" and I undervalued myself enormously. I went out with blokes who weren't very nice. I took shit from people that I wouldn't have done in my teenage years and I eventually succumed to a feeling of inadequacy that was made up from the feelings bought on by depression and mental illness. Part of recovery is about re-building yourself, re-building your body and re-building your mind and spirit. In some way you may be at the stage where you dont know who you are anymore or what you like. It is only through courage and perseverance and trying new things that you will help yourself put that jigsaw back together again. A bit like humpty dumpty just cos the poor bloke got run over by a load of rampaging horses doesnt mean he couldnt mend himself. So get back on that horse, ride it in the direction it is going and be kind to YOU while your learn to live again. You may "feel" like a mess but you "can" be a beautiful one, dont ever drop your standards or feel unworthy because you have an illness and dont ever take any crap from anyone.